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Name: Fyodor Dostoevsky

Age: 59 years old

Place of Birth: Moscow

A place of death: Saint Petersburg

Activity: Russian writer

Family status: was married

Fyodor Dostoevsky - biography

At the very first meeting with his future wife, Anna Grigorievna Snitkina, Dostoevsky told her, a complete stranger and unfamiliar girl, the story of his life. “His story made a terrible impression on me: a chill went down my spine,” recalled Anna Grigorievna. “This seemingly secretive and stern man told me his entire past life in such detail, so sincerely and sincerely that I was involuntarily surprised. Only later did I understand that Fyodor Mikhailovich, completely alone and surrounded by people hostile to him, at that time felt a thirst to openly tell someone a biography about his life...”

Fyodor Mikhailovich Dostoevsky was born in 1821 into the once noble noble family of the Dostoevskys, whose family came from the Russian-Lithuanian gentry. The chronicles mention the fact that back in 1506, Prince Fyodor Ivanovich Yaroslavich granted his voivode Danila Rtishchev the family coat of arms and the vast estate of Dostoevo near present-day Brest, and from that voivode the entire large Dostoevsky family came. However, by the beginning of the century before last, only one coat of arms remained from the family inheritance, and the father of the future writer, Mikhail Andreevich Dostoevsky, was forced to feed his family with his own labor - he worked as a staff doctor at the Mariinsky Hospital on Bozhedomka in Moscow. The family lived in a wing at the hospital, and all eight children of Mikhail Andreevich and his wife Maria Fedorovna were born there.

Fyodor Dostoevsky - childhood and youth

Fedya Dostoevsky received a decent education for noble children of that time - he knew Latin, French and German. The children were taught the basics of literacy by their mother, then Fyodor, together with his older brother Mikhail, entered the Moscow private boarding school of Leonty Chermak. “The humane attitude towards us, children, on the part of our parents was the reason that during their lifetime they did not dare to place us in a gymnasium, although it would have cost much less,” Fyodor Mikhailovich’s brother, Andrei Dostoevsky, later wrote in his memoirs about the biography.

Gymnasiums did not enjoy a good reputation at that time, and they had the usual and ordinary corporal punishment for any slightest offense. As a result, private boarding houses were preferred.” When Fedor turned 16, his father sent him and Mikhail to study at Kostomarov’s private boarding school in St. Petersburg. After completing their studies, the boys moved to the St. Petersburg Military Engineering School, which was then considered one of the privileged educational institutions for the “golden youth”. Fyodor also considered himself among the elite - primarily the intellectual one, since the money his father sent was sometimes not enough even for the most necessary things.

Unlike Mikhail, who did not attach much importance to this, Fyodor was embarrassed by his old dress and the constant lack of cash. During the day, the brothers went to school, and in the evenings they often visited literary salons, where at that time the works of Schiller, Goethe, as well as Auguste Comte and Louis Blanc, French historians and sociologists fashionable in those years, were discussed.

The brothers' carefree youth ended in 1839, when news of their father's death came to St. Petersburg - according to the existing “family legend,” Mikhail Andreevich died on his Darovoye estate at the hands of his own serfs, whom he caught red-handed stealing timber. Perhaps it was the shock associated with the death of his father that forced Fyodor to move away from evenings in bohemian salons and join socialist circles, which were then active in large numbers among students.

The circle members talked about the ugliness of censorship and serfdom, the corruption of officials and the oppression of freedom-loving youth. “I can say that Dostoevsky never was and could not be a revolutionary,” his classmate Pyotr Semyonov-Tyan-Shansky later recalled. The only thing is that he, as a noble man of feeling, could be carried away by feelings of indignation and even anger at the sight of injustices and violence committed against the humiliated and insulted, which was the reason for his visits to Petrashevsky’s circle.”

It was under the influence of Petrashevsky’s ideas that Fyodor Mikhailovich wrote his first novel, “Poor People,” which made him famous. Success changed the life of yesterday's student - the engineering service was over, now Dostoevsky could rightfully call himself a writer. The name of Dostoevsky in his biography became known not only in the circles of writers and poets, but also among the general reading public. Dostoevsky's debut turned out to be successful, and no one had any doubt that his path to the heights of literary fame would be direct and easy.

But life decreed otherwise. In 1849, the “Petrashevsky case” broke out - the reason for the arrest was the public reading of Belinsky’s letter to Gogol, prohibited by censorship. All two dozen of those arrested, and Dostoevsky among them, repented of their passion for “harmful ideas.” Nevertheless, the gendarmes saw in their “disastrous conversations” signs of preparation for “unrest and riots that threaten the overthrow of all order, the violation of the most sacred rights of religion, law and property.”

The court sentenced them to death by shooting on the Semyonovsky parade ground, and only at the last moment, when all the convicts were already standing on the scaffold in death row clothes, the emperor relented and announced a pardon, replacing the execution with hard labor. Mikhail Petrashevsky himself was sent to hard labor for life, and Fyodor Dostoevsky, like most “revolutionaries,” received only 4 years of hard labor followed by service as an ordinary soldier.

Fyodor Dostoevsky served his term in Omsk. At first he worked in a brick factory, firing alabaster, and later worked in an engineering workshop. “For all four years I lived hopelessly in the prison, behind the walls, and only went out to work,” the writer recalled. - The work was hard, and sometimes I was exhausted, in bad weather, in wetness, in slush, or in winter in unbearable cold... We lived in a heap, all together, in the same barracks. The floor is dirty to an inch, the ceiling is dripping - everything is dripping. We slept on bare bunks, only one pillow was allowed. They covered themselves with short sheepskin coats, and their legs were always bare all night. You'll tremble all night. I count those 4 years as the time during which he was buried alive and closed in a coffin...” During hard labor, Dostoevsky’s epilepsy worsened, attacks of which later tormented him all his life.

Fyodor Dostoevsky - Semipalatinsk

After his release, Dostoevsky was sent to serve in the seventh Siberian linear battalion at the Semipalatinsk fortress - then this town was known not as a nuclear testing site, but as a run-of-the-mill fortress that guarded the border from raids by Kazakh nomads. “It was a half-city, half-village with crooked wooden houses,” recalled Baron Alexander Wrangel, who served as the prosecutor of Semipalatinsk at that time, many years later. Dostoevsky was settled in an ancient hut, which stood in the most bleak place: a steep wasteland, shifting sand, not a bush, not a tree.

Fyodor Mikhailovich paid five rubles for his premises, laundry and food. But what was his food like! A soldier was then given four kopecks for welding. Of these four kopecks, the company commander and cook kept one and a half kopecks for their benefit. Of course, life was cheap then: one pound of meat cost a penny, a pound of buckwheat cost thirty kopecks. Fyodor Mikhailovich took home his daily portion of cabbage soup. porridge and black bread, and if he didn’t eat it himself, he gave it to his poor mistress...”

It was there, in Semipalatinsk, that Dostoevsky first fell seriously in love. His chosen one was Maria Dmitrievna Isaeva, the wife of a former gymnasium teacher, and now an official in the tavern department, exiled from the capital to the ends of the world for some sins. “Maria Dmitrievna was over thirty years old,” recalled Baron Wrangel. - Quite a beautiful blonde of medium height, very thin, passionate and exalted in nature. She caressed Fyodor Mikhailovich, but I don’t think she deeply appreciated him, she simply took pity on the unfortunate man, beaten down by fate... I don’t think that Maria Dmitrievna was in any serious way in love.

Fyodor Mikhailovich mistook the feeling of pity and compassion for mutual love and fell in love with her with all the fervor of his youth.” Painful and fragile. Maria reminded the writer of his mother, and in his attitude towards her there was more tenderness than passion. Dostoevsky was ashamed of his feelings for a married woman, worried and tormented by the hopelessness of the situation. But about a year after they met, in August 1855, Isaev died suddenly, and Fyodor Mikhailovich immediately proposed marriage to his beloved, which, however, the widow did not immediately accept.

They got married only at the beginning of 1857, when Dostoevsky received an officer rank and Maria Dmitrievna gained confidence that he could provide for her and her son Pavel. But, unfortunately, this marriage did not live up to Dostoevsky’s hopes. Later he wrote to Alexander Wrangel: “Oh, my friend, she loved me infinitely, I loved her also without measure, but we did not live happily with her... We were positively unhappy together (according to her strange, suspicious and painful- fantastic character) - we could not stop loving each other; even the more unhappy they were, the more attached they became to each other.”

In 1859, Dostoevsky returned to St. Petersburg with his wife and stepson. And he discovered that his name was not at all forgotten by the public; on the contrary, the fame of a writer and a “political prisoner” accompanied him everywhere. He began writing again - first the novel “Notes from the House of the Dead”, then “Humiliated and Insulted”, “Winter Notes on Summer Impressions”. Together with his older brother Mikhail, he opened the magazine “Time” - his brother, who bought his own tobacco factory with his father’s inheritance, subsidized the publication of the almanac.

Alas, several years later it turned out that Mikhail Mikhailovich was a very mediocre businessman, and after his sudden death, both the factory and the editorial office of the magazine were left with huge debts that Fyodor Mikhailovich had to take on. Later, his second wife, Anna Grigorievna Snitkina, wrote: “To pay these debts, Fyodor Mikhailovich had to work beyond his strength... How would my husband’s works benefit artistically if he, without these debts incurred, could write novels without rushing through, scanning and finishing before sending them to press.

In literature and society, Dostoevsky’s works are often compared with the works of other talented writers and Dostoevsky is reproached for the excessive complexity, intricacy and congestion of his novels, while others’ works are polished, and Turgenev’s, for example, are almost jewelry-honed. And rarely does it occur to anyone to remember and weigh the circumstances under which other writers lived and worked, and under which my husband lived and worked.”

Fyodor Dostoevsky - biography of personal life

But then, in the early 60s, it seemed that Dostoevsky had a second youth. He amazed those around him with his ability to work; he was often excited and cheerful. At this time, a new love came to him - it was a certain Apollinaria Suslova, a graduate of the boarding school for noble maidens, who later became the prototype for both Nastasya Filippovna in The Idiot and Polina in The Player. Apollinaria was the complete opposite of Maria Dmitrievna - a young, strong, independent girl.

And the feelings that the writer experienced for her were also completely different from his love for his wife: instead of tenderness and compassion - passion and desire to possess. In her memoirs about her father, Fyodor Mikhailovich’s daughter Lyubov Dostoevskaya wrote that Apollinaria sent him “a declaration of love” in the fall of 1861. The letter was found among my father's papers - it is written simply, naively and poetically. At first impression, we see a timid young girl, blinded by the genius of the great writer. Dostoevsky was touched by Polina's letter. This declaration of love came to him at the moment when he needed it most..."

Their relationship lasted three years. At first, Polina was flattered by the adoration of the great writer, but gradually her feelings for Dostoevsky cooled. According to Fyodor Mikhailovich’s biographers, Apollinaria was expecting some kind of romantic love, but met the real passion of a mature man. Dostoevsky himself assessed his passion this way: “Apollinaria is a great egoist. The selfishness and pride in her are colossal. She demands everything from people, all perfections, does not forgive a single imperfection in respect for other good traits, but she herself relieves herself of the slightest responsibilities towards people.” Leaving his wife in St. Petersburg. Dostoevsky traveled around Europe with Apollinaria, spent time in casinos - Fyodor Mikhailovich turned out to be a passionate but unlucky gambler - and lost a lot at roulette.

In 1864, Dostoevsky’s “second youth” unexpectedly ended. In April, his wife Maria Dmitrievna died. and literally three months later, brother Mikhail Mikhailovich died suddenly. Dostoevsky subsequently wrote to his old friend Wrangel: “... I was suddenly left alone, and I simply became scared. My whole life was turned in two at once. The one half I crossed had everything I lived for. and in the other, still unknown half, everything is alien, everything is new, and not a single heart that could replace both of them for me.”

In addition to mental suffering, the death of his brother also entailed serious financial consequences for Dostoevsky: he found himself without money and without a magazine, which was closed for debts. Fyodor Mikhailovich proposed to Apollinaria Suslova to marry him - this would also solve the issues with his debts, because Polina was from a fairly wealthy family. But the girl refused; by that time, not a trace remained of her enthusiastic attitude towards Dostoevsky. In December 1864, she wrote in her diary: “People are telling me about FM. I just hate him. He made me suffer so much when it was possible to do without suffering.”

Another failed bride of the writer was Anna Korvin-Krukovskaya, a representative of an ancient noble family, the sister of the famous Sofia Kovalevskaya. According to the writer’s biographers, at first things seemed to be heading towards a wedding, but then the engagement was terminated without explanation. However, Fyodor Mikhailovich himself always claimed that it was he who freed the bride from this promise: “This is a girl of high moral qualities: but her beliefs are diametrically opposed to mine, and she cannot give them up, she is too straightforward. It’s unlikely that our marriage could be happy.”

From life's hardships, Dostoevsky tried to hide abroad, but creditors pursued him there too, threatening deprivation of copyright, inventory of property and debtor's prison. His relatives also demanded money - the widow of his brother Mikhail believed that Fedor was obliged to provide her and her children with a decent existence. Desperately trying to get at least some money, he entered into enslaving contracts to write two novels at once - “The Gambler” and “Crime and Punishment”, but soon realized that he had neither the moral nor the physical strength to meet the deadlines set by the contracts. Dostoevsky tried to distract himself by playing, but luck, as usual, did not favor him, and, losing his last money, he became increasingly depressed and melancholy. In addition, due to his undermined mental balance, he was literally tormented by epileptic attacks.

It was in this state that 20-year-old Anna Grigorievna Snitkina found the writer. Anna first heard the name of Dostoevsky at the age of 16 - from her father Grigory Ivanovich, a poor nobleman and petty St. Petersburg official who was a passionate admirer of literature and was fond of theater. According to her own recollections, Anya secretly took the edition of “Notes from the House of the Dead” from her father, read it at night and shed bitter tears on the pages. She was an ordinary St. Petersburg girl of the mid-19th century - from the age of nine she was sent to study at the School of St. Anna on Kirochnaya Street, then to the Mariinsky Women's Gymnasium.

Anyuta was an excellent student, voraciously read women's novels and seriously dreamed of reorganizing this world - for example, becoming a doctor or teacher. Despite the fact that already during her studies at the gymnasium it became clear that literature for her was much closer and more interesting than the natural sciences. In the fall of 1864, graduate Snitkina entered the physics and mathematics department of Pedagogical Courses. But neither physics nor mathematics were good for her, and biology became a torment: when the teacher in the class began to dissect a dead cat, Anya fainted.

In addition, a year later her father became seriously ill, and Anna had to earn money herself to support the family. She decided to leave her teaching career and went to study shorthand courses opened by the then famous Professor Olkhin. “At first I was completely unsuccessful at shorthand,” Anya later recalled, “and only after the 5th or 6th lecture did I begin to master this gibberish writing.” A year later, Anya Snitkina was considered Olkhin’s best student, and when Dostoevsky himself approached the professor, wanting to hire a stenographer, he didn’t even have a doubt about who to send to the famous writer.

Their acquaintance took place on October 4, 1866. “At twenty-five minutes past eleven I approached Alonkin’s house and asked the janitor standing at the gate where apartment No. 13 was,” Anna Grigorievna recalled. - The house was large, with many small apartments inhabited by merchants and artisans. It immediately reminded me of the house in the novel Crime and Punishment, in which the hero of the novel Raskolnikov lived. Dostoevsky's apartment was on the second floor. I rang the bell, and the door was immediately opened by an elderly maid who invited me into the dining room...

The maid asked me to sit down, saying that the master would come now. Indeed, about two minutes later Fyodor Mikhailovich appeared... At first glance, Dostoevsky seemed quite old to me. But as soon as he spoke, he immediately became younger, and I thought that he was unlikely to be more than thirty-five to seven years old. He was of average height and stood very erect. Light brown, even slightly reddish hair, was heavily pomaded and carefully smoothed. But what struck me were his eyes; they were different: one was brown, in the other the pupil was dilated throughout the entire eye and the iris was imperceptible. This duality of the eyes gave Dostoevsky’s gaze a kind of mysterious expression...”

However, at first their work did not go well: Dostoevsky was irritated by something and smoked a lot. He tried to dictate a new article for Russkiy Vestnik, but then, apologizing, he suggested that Anna come over in the evening, around eight o’clock. Arriving in the evening, Snitkina found Fyodor Mikhailovich in much better condition, he was talkative and hospitable. He admitted that he liked the way she behaved at the first meeting - seriously, almost sternly, she did not smoke and did not at all resemble modern girls with bobbed hair. Gradually they began to communicate freely, and unexpectedly for Anna, Fyodor Mikhailovich suddenly began to tell her the biography of his life.

This evening conversation became the first pleasant event for Fyodor Mikhailovich in such a difficult last year of his life. The very next morning after his “confession” he wrote in a letter to the poet Maikov: “Olkhin sent me his best student... Anna Grigorievna Snitkina is a young and rather pretty girl, 20 years old, of good family, who completed her gymnasium course excellently, with an extremely kind and clear character. Our work went great...

Thanks to the efforts of Anna Grigorievna, Dostoevsky managed to fulfill the incredible terms of the contract with the publisher Stellovsky and write the entire novel “The Player” in twenty-six days. “At the end of the novel, I noticed that my stenographer sincerely loved me,” Dostoevsky wrote in one of his letters. -Although she never said a word to me about it, I liked her more and more. Since my life has been terribly boring and hard for me since the death of my brother, I asked her to marry me... The difference in years is terrible (20 and 44), but I am more and more convinced that she will be happy. She has a heart, and she knows how to love.”

Their engagement took place literally a month after they met - November 8, 1866. As Anna Grigorievna herself recalled, when making the proposal, Dostoevsky was very worried and, afraid of receiving an outright refusal, first spoke about the fictional characters of the novel he supposedly conceived: they say, do you think that a young girl, let’s say her name is Anya, could fall in love with someone who loves her tenderly? , but an old and sick artist, also burdened with debts?

“Imagine that this artist is me, that I confessed my love to you and asked you to be my wife. Tell me, what would you answer me? - Fyodor Mikhailovich’s face expressed such embarrassment, such heartache that I finally realized that this was not just a literary conversation and that I would deal a terrible blow to his vanity and pride if I gave an evasive answer. I looked at the excited face of Fyodor Mikhailovich, so dear to me, and said: “I would answer you that I love you and will love you all my life!”

I will not pass on the tender, love-filled words that Fyodor Mikhailovich spoke to me in those unforgettable moments: they are sacred to me...”

Their wedding took place on February 15, 1867 at about 8 pm in the Izmailovsky Trinity Cathedral in St. Petersburg. It seemed that Anna Grigorievna’s joy would have no end, but literally a week later the harsh reality reminded itself of itself. Firstly, Dostoevsky’s stepson Pavel spoke out against Anna, who regarded the appearance of a new woman as a threat to his interests. “Pavel Alexandrovich formed a view of me as a usurper, as a woman who forcibly entered their family, where hitherto he was the complete master,” Dostoevskaya recalled.

Unable to interfere with our marriage, Pavel Alexandrovich decided to make it unbearable for me. It is very possible that with his constant troubles, quarrels and slander against me to Fyodor Mikhailovich, he hoped to quarrel us and force us to separate.” Secondly, the young wife was constantly slandered by other relatives of the writer, who feared that she would “cut” the amount of financial assistance that Dostoevsky distributed to them from his fees. It got to the point that after just a month of living together, constant scandals made the life of the newlyweds so difficult. that Anna Grigorievna was seriously afraid of a final break in relations.

The catastrophe, however, did not happen - and mainly thanks to the extraordinary intelligence, determination and energy of Anna Grigorievna herself. She pawned all her valuables in the pawnshop and persuaded Fyodor Mikhailovich to go abroad, to Germany, secretly from his relatives, in order to change the situation and live together at least for a short time. Dostoevsky agreed to escape, explaining his decision in a letter to the poet Maikov: “There are two main reasons. 1) Save not only mental health, but even life in certain circumstances. .. 2) Creditors.”

It was planned that the trip abroad would take only three months, but thanks to Anna Grigorievna’s prudence, she managed to snatch her loved one out of her usual environment for four whole years, which prevented her from becoming a full-fledged wife. “Finally, a period of serene happiness came for me: there were no financial worries, there were no persons standing between me and my husband, there was a complete opportunity to enjoy his company.”

Anna Grigorievna also weaned her husband from his addiction to roulette, somehow managing to evoke shame in his soul for the lost money. Dostoevsky wrote in one of his letters to his wife: “A great thing has happened to me, the vile fantasy that tormented me for almost ten years has disappeared (or, better, since the death of my brother, when I was suddenly depressed by debts): I dreamed of winning everything; dreamed seriously, passionately... Now it's all over! I will remember this all my life and bless you, my angel, every time. No, now it’s yours, yours inseparably, all yours. Until now, half of this damned fantasy belonged to me.”

In February 1868, in Geneva, the Dostoevskys finally gave birth to their first child - daughter Sophia. “But we were not given long to enjoy our cloudless happiness. - wrote Anna Figorievna. - In the first days of May, the weather was wonderful, and we, on the urgent advice of the doctor, took our dear baby to the park every day, where she slept in her stroller for two or three hours. One unfortunate day during such a walk the weather suddenly changed, and apparently the girl caught a cold, because that same night she developed a fever and a cough.” Already on May 12, she died, and the Dostoevskys’ grief seemed to know no bounds.

“Life seemed to have stopped for us; all our thoughts, all our conversations were focused on memories of Sonya and that happy time when she illuminated our lives with her presence... But the merciful God took pity on our suffering: we soon became convinced that God had blessed our marriage and we could hope again have a child. Our joy was immeasurable, and my dear husband began to take care of me just as carefully. just like during my first pregnancy.”

Later, Anna Grigorievna gave birth to her husband two more sons - the eldest Fedor (1871) and the youngest Alexei (1875). True, the Dostoevsky couple once again had the bitter fate of surviving the death of their child: in May 1878, three-year-old Alyosha died from an attack of epilepsy.

Anna Grigorievna supported her husband in difficult times, was both a loving wife and a spiritual friend for him. But besides this, she became for Dostoevsky, in modern terms, his literary agent and manager. It was thanks to his wife’s practicality and initiative that he was able to finally pay off all the debts that had poisoned his life for years. Anna Grigorievna started with that. What. Having studied the intricacies of publishing, she decided to print and sell Dostoevsky’s new book herself - the novel “Demons”.

She did not rent a room for this, but simply indicated her home address in newspaper advertisements and paid the buyers herself. Much to her husband’s surprise, literally within a month the entire circulation of the book had already been sold out, and Anna Grigorievna officially established a new enterprise: “F.M. Book Trade Store.” Dostoevsky (exclusively for nonresidents).”

Finally, it was Anna Grigorievna who insisted that the family leave noisy St. Petersburg forever - away from obsessive and greedy relatives. The Dostoevskys chose to live in the town of Staraya Russa in the Novgorod province, where they bought a two-story wooden mansion.

Anna Grigorievna wrote in her memoirs: “The time spent in Russa is one of my most beautiful memories. The children were quite healthy, and throughout the entire winter they never had to call a doctor to see them. which did not happen when we lived in the capital. Fyodor Mikhailovich also felt good: thanks to a calm, measured life and the absence of all unpleasant surprises (so frequent in St. Petersburg), the husband’s nerves became stronger, and epileptic seizures occurred less frequently and were less severe.

And as a result of this, Fyodor Mikhailovich rarely got angry and irritated, and was always almost good-natured, talkative and cheerful... Our daily life in Staraya Russa was all distributed by hour, and this was strictly observed. Working at night, my husband got up no earlier than eleven o'clock. When he went out to drink coffee, he called the children, and they happily ran to him and told him all the incidents that happened that morning, and about everything they saw on their walk. And Fyodor Mikhailovich, looking at them, rejoiced and maintained the liveliest conversation with them.

Neither before nor since have I seen a person who could do it as well as my husband. enter into the worldview of children and thus interest them in your conversation. In the afternoon, Fyodor Mikhailovich called me into his office to dictate what he had managed to write during the night... In the evening, Fyodor Mikhailovich was playing with the children, to the sounds of an organ (Fyodor Mikhailovich himself bought it for the children, and now they are also having fun with it his grandchildren) danced with me the quadrille, waltz and mazurka. My husband especially loved the mazurka and, to be fair, he danced it wildly and enthusiastically...”

Fyodor Dostoevsky - death and funeral

In the fall of 1880, the Dostoevsky family returned to St. Petersburg. They decided to spend this winter in the capital - Fyodor Mikhailovich complained of poor health, and Anna Grigorievna was afraid to entrust his health to provincial doctors. On the night of January 25-26, 1881, he was working as usual when his fountain pen fell behind a bookcase. Fyodor Mikhailovich tried to move the bookcase, but from the intense tension his throat began to bleed - in recent years the writer suffered from emphysema. For the next two days, Fyodor Mikhailovich remained in serious condition, and on the evening of January 28 he died.

Dostoevsky's funeral became a historical event: almost thirty thousand people accompanied his coffin to the Alecheandro-Nevsky Lavra. Every Russian experienced the death of the great writer as national mourning and personal grief.

For a long time Anna Grigorievna could not come to terms with the death of Dostoevsky. On the day of her husband’s funeral, she made a vow to devote the rest of her life to serving his name. Anna Grigorievna continued to live in the past. As her daughter Lyubov Fedorovna wrote, “Mom did not live in the twentieth century, but remained in the 70s of the nineteenth. Her people are the friends of Fyodor Mikhailovich, her society is a circle of departed people close to Dostoevsky. She lived with them. Everyone who works on the study of the life or works of Dostoevsky seemed like a close person to her.”

Anna Grigorievna died in June 1918 in Yalta and was buried in a local cemetery - far from St. Petersburg, from her relatives, from Dostoevsky’s grave, dear to her. In her will, she asked that she be buried in the Alexander Nevsky Lavra, next to her husband, and that a separate monument not be erected, but just a few lines cut out. In 1968, her last wish was fulfilled.

Three years after the death of Anna Grigorievna, the famous literary critic L.P. Grossman wrote about her: “She managed to melt Dostoevsky’s tragic personal life into the calm and complete happiness of his last time. She undoubtedly extended Dostoevsky's life. With the deep wisdom of a loving heart, Anna Grigorievna managed to solve the most difficult task - to be the life companion of a neurotic person, a former convict, an epileptic and the greatest creative genius.”

Eroticism of Dostoevsky

We find vivid manifestations of Dostoevsky's eroticism in his love dramas, in the intensity of the passions of his intimate relationships, in his successes and defeats with women, as well as in the depiction of heroines and heroes in novels and stories. In all his works, Dostoevsky depicted the failures of love, associated with sacrifice and suffering. At the same time, he could not or did not want to describe love as triumphant, joyful and confident as a man. The intensity of his eroticism and sexual tension are explained by his unfettered imagination and forced periods of abstinence from communicating with women. Abstinence occurred, for example, during the period of hard labor, due to illness, suspiciousness, and melancholy.

By temperament, Dostoevsky was a man of great passions, deep sensuality and insatiable voluptuousness. After a long accumulation of intimate relationships with women, he came to the conclusion that the power of sex over a person is very great and that a person’s will can be subordinated to the physical arousal of passion, and the mental incitement of sexual desire (in our time - masturbation) is worse than the “sin” itself. , i.e. intimate relationships. This can be explained by the fact that in his youth Dostoevsky was well aware of this mental (mental) kindling of the flesh, this game of erotic imagination, and he also knew the direct satisfaction of sexual need, which, having accumulated experience in intimate relationships with women, he called “sin.”

The combination in a woman’s character of childish and feminine principles, fragility and grace in the figure aroused in Dostoevsky an acute physical attraction, awakened his erotic fantasy, and then such a woman seemed extraordinary and desirable to him. Moreover, if this woman suffered, then this attracted his attention even more, struck his imagination and evoked a sensual impulse, which led to complex experiences that Dostoevsky could not and did not always want to understand. This is explained by the fact that sensitivity to someone else’s grief, a woman’s, increased his erotic excitability.

Therefore, in Dostoevsky’s eroticism, sadistic and masochistic desires were intertwined in the most bizarre way: to love meant to sacrifice oneself and respond with one’s whole soul and whole body to the suffering of others, even at the cost of one’s own torment.

But to love also meant for Dostoevsky to torment oneself, to cause suffering, to painfully wound a beloved being. Not every woman could share with Dostoevsky either his voluptuousness or his sensuality, given his heightened sexuality, his complexes of masochism and sadism. As in life, so in love, he was a difficult and strange person. His love was not easy - with contradictions of tenderness, compassion, thirst for physical attraction, fear of causing pain and an uncontrollable desire for torment. He didn't know simple feelings. His love tore both body and soul apart. At the same time, the great writer, who knew how to unravel and imagine all the twists of the mind and heart of his numerous and complex heroes, did not find words when he had to talk about his own experiences.

Dostoevsky had a special kind of erotic quality - a feeling that both men and women sometimes experience in relation to those who had intimate relations with their partners. Dostoevsky had this feeling towards the teacher Vergunov, the constant lover of his first wife Marya Dimitrievna. He took care of him even after marriage and said that Vergunov “is now dearer to me than my own brother.”

Dostoevsky's eroticism is built on the fact that in his imagination, feelings and dreams, voluptuousness is inseparable from torment. For all his heroes, as the main motive of their sexuality, the thirst for power over sex or the thirst for victimization of sex comes to the fore. This eroticism of Dostoevsky survived him for many, many years. Today we see in American films about love that the basis of their plots is Dostoev’s sexuality, i.e. “the thirst for power over sex or the thirst for the victim of sex.” Let’s compare the love drama in an American film with the words of the hero of Dostoevsky’s “The Gambler”:

“And wild, unlimited power - even over a fly - is also a kind of pleasure. Man is a despot by nature and loves to be a tormentor.”

Scenes of violence and physical sadism are found in almost all of Dostoevsky's novels. In the novel “Demons,” Stavrogin, with bated breath, watches as a girl is flogged with rods because of him: he will then rape her.

More than a hundred years have passed since the death of Dostoevsky, and today the best detective novels and action films are only built on “scenes of violence and physical sadism.”

Pain, suffering, as an undivided part of love, physical torment associated with sexual intercourse, and mental torment associated with the entire sensual sphere of intimacy between a man and a woman - such was Dostoevsky’s eroticism in the years of his maturity.

It was not only beauty and charm that attracted Dostoevsky in the women he loved or desired, they excited and captivated him with something else. This was different - absolute defenselessness, which promised complete submission, humility and passivity of the victim, or, on the contrary, sharp power, which promised humiliation and pleasure from the pain caused by the woman he loved. Between these two poles lay all the fluctuations and contradictions in Dostoevsky’s relations with all his lovers.

Much of Dostoevsky’s sadistic and masochistic inclinations confused him, although he was sure that cruelty, love of torment, as well as the voluptuousness of self-abasement are in human nature, and therefore natural, like other vices and instincts of people.

Dostoevsky was always attracted to very young women, and he transferred his sexual fantasies to young girls. And in his works, he repeatedly described various loves of a mature or old man with a young girl. Regardless of how fair it is to assume that Dostoevsky himself knew such temptations, he perfectly understood and masterfully described the physical passion of a mature man for teenagers and girls.

Imagination played a large role in Dostoevsky's eroticism. Just as in creativity one cannot assume that the writer depicts in his works only what really happened to him, so in Dostoevsky’s eroticism one cannot see only his personal experience. In the creative imagination one should distinguish between thoughts and deeds and experience. Unfulfilled desires and thoughts also feed artistic imagination. Dostoevsky in his eroticism has many sexual fantasies - torture, rape and others that did not happen to him in reality, but were described by him with stunning realism. And this fantasy already seems like a reality to anyone who has entered the world of voluptuousness and perversion created by the imagination of Dostoevsky - this brilliant tormentor and martyr.

In Dostoevsky's eroticism, an insatiable curiosity for all the tricks and varieties of vice, for variations and combinations of passions, for the deviations and oddities of human nature found its place. This curiosity explained why he showed interest in “fallen creatures”, became friends with street women and among them with hardened, cynical professionals - their crude eroticism had an irresistible effect on him. However, Dostoevsky’s intense interest in his youth in “lost personalities” and the St. Petersburg slums dwindled in the mid-sixties, and he rarely visited nightlife establishments. By 1865, after a love drama with the young girl Apollinaria, his passions had noticeably subsided and a lot of things in him had burned out. His erotic characteristics and desires of these years did not become a habit for the rest of his life, at some point they reached their maximum height, then burned out, and others were reborn - they lost their intensity, the heat of the blood subsided and most of them surrendered to the heavy burden of memories that manifest themselves in sexual fantasies. By this time - by 1865, Dostoevsky's masochism and sadism, his complexes associated with minors, his sexual fervor and curiosity, that is, the entire pathological side of his erotic life, lose the character of frenzy and mania, become dulled, and he consciously strives for to what might be called the “normalization of his sexual activity.” Perhaps this is where his dreams of marriage and his attraction to young girls of marriageable age intensify. He knew his nature well: only in the company of young girls did he have the joy of being and hope for happiness. In a young girl, the combination of childishness and femininity for Dostoevsky turned into a source of erotic attraction. Youth excited him and promised physical pleasure. He found all this in his second wife of twenty years, Anna Grigorievna. The Dostoevskys, from intimate intimacy, revealed the best sides of their nature, and Anna Grigorievna, who fell in love and married the author of “The Gambler,” saw that he was a completely extraordinary, brilliant, terrible, difficult person, and he, who married his secretary-stenographer, discovered that not only is he “the patron and protector of the young creature,” but she is his friend and support.

At sixty years old, Dostoevsky was just as jealous as in his youth, but he was also just as passionate in the manifestations of his love for Anna Grigorievna. Sexual tension was explained not only by the sexual habit of marriage with a young wife, but also by the intensity of Dostoevsky's eroticism and his imagination and the consciousness that the young woman, who had already lived with him for a whole decade, not only loved him, but was also physically satisfied. Dostoevsky's sensuality remained as heightened as in his youth; the years of old age changed little in his character and temperament. Towards the end of his life he was unusually thin and emaciated, tired easily, suffered from his emphysema and lived solely on his nerves.

Dostoevsky's eroticism knew no bounds, and one can only imagine all the indomitable passions in the fire of which this extraordinary, frantic and mysterious man burned.

DOSTOEVSKY AND WE

Dostoevsky and we are modern people of human society at the end of the twentieth century. In what connection do Dostoevsky’s ideas affect us, modern people? Do we live “according to Dostoevsky”, do we experience the same feelings, do we have the same thoughts as his heroes of the 19th century?

Dostoevsky, by his own admission, spent his whole life studying the “secret of man” - he explored the spiritual life of man. He wrote:

“They call me a psychologist, which is not true, I am only a realist in the highest sense, that is, I depict all the depths of the human soul.” There are no landscapes or pictures of nature in Dostoevsky's novels. He depicts only man and the human world. Its heroes are people of modern urban civilization who have fallen out of the natural world order and have become disconnected from “living life.” And the people of the late twentieth century, that is, we, moved even further away from nature and became even more detached from “living life.”

In his works, Dostoevsky plunged into the depths of the subconscious and explored the mental life of children and adolescents; he studied the psyche of madmen, maniacs, fanatics, criminals, murderers and suicides.

Modern people mainly read detective books, watch thriller films, where the main characters are those whose souls Dostoevsky studied - murderers, criminals, madmen and maniacs. And modern man himself in his life increasingly experiences the hardships of life created by Dostoevsky’s heroes - maniacs (for example, Hitler), criminals and murderers.

Dostoevsky, as we have seen, gravitated towards young girls. His first love - Apollinaria and his wife Anna - were young innocent girls. In the company of a young girl, he perked up, “soared in spirit,” and forgot about his age.

The phenomenon, so to speak, of Dostoevsky’s “young girl” was that, on the one hand, she, a girl, has a stronger and deeper effect on a person, on the other, on her face, in her figure, gestures, words, exclamations, Laughter conveys her feelings, moods, and movements of the soul faster and more clearly, more accessible to strangers. And in this case, Dostoevsky, as a very sensitive nature, preferred to deal with girls than with mature women, in whom, due to their experience, silent voice and sometimes a thick layer of fat on their bodies, it is difficult to discern sincere emotional impulses.

In the 19th century, Dostoevsky loved and communicated with young girls. Now, at the end of the twentieth century, we all “love” young girls - advertising takes full advantage of young girls. We see them in almost all commercials, on television screens, etc. Why isn’t life “according to Dostoevsky”?

Dostoevsky, a single man, had an increased interest in young children, in their spiritual life, in their psyche. This phenomenon has become noticeable in our time: many publications are devoted to child molestation. There are many reports of girls being raped by their fathers in their families. Child prostitution has developed in the countries of Southeast Asia, especially in Thailand, where there are many children's brothels. Underage child sex work is developed in the United States. And this “phenomenon” is growing.

What explains it? If Dostoevsky had heightened sensitivity, and he used it to explore the area of ​​\u200b\u200bmental life, as a means of understanding the human spirit in order to protect the dignity, personality and freedom of man, then modern man has dulled sensitivity, he has the consciousness of a “hunted mouse”, and In order to get out of it, he molests a minor or “shows off” a minor prostitute for money, feeling like a “strong personality” to whom “everything is allowed.”

All of Dostoevsky's works are dedicated to crimes and punishments. When he wrote them, he was addressing us, the people of the late twentieth century. It seems that humanity after Dostoevsky and up to the present day has been busy inventing more and more new crimes, and not only against an individual, but also against humanity (fascism, for example).

Dostoevsky individualized and dissected the external influence on a person - on his soul, in order to understand it deeper and better. And in this we follow him. But today we do not strive to understand the human soul, but strive to influence it in order to receive greater profit from this influence.

An example of this is modern music (pop music, ensembles, all kinds of groups, recording discs), which affects listeners not with the content of the songs, not with the melody, but with the sound - low, high, percussive, sharp. Thus, if earlier one talent, one genius (Dostoevsky) achieved the highest results of influencing a person’s soul, today his experience is transformed and used as an instrument of influence on the human psyche through advertising (young girls), through modern pop music, erotic films and so on.

Dostoevsky passionately believed in the “great general harmony,” “the unity of humanity.” Humanity in our time has already come close to this milestone. People have become almost identical both in appearance and in the development of their souls. Dostoevsky wrote that if people are only natural beings, if their souls are not immortal, then they should settle down most happily on earth, submit to the principles of profit and reasonable egoism. Hence, according to Dostoevsky, the “herding” of humanity or the transformation of people into a “human herd” and the destruction of the human soul.

And in this Dostoevsky turned out to be right for our time. All this has already happened, and not because man has only submitted to the “principles of profit and reasonable egoism,” but because man in our time lives “in the crowd.” In other words, there are a lot of people, so many that we live, as it were, “in a crowd”

And this “crowd” affects every person, his state of mind, his desire to “grab his piece of life” as soon as possible. The “crowd” increases crimes, lowers the threshold of morality, and crowds out such spiritual concepts as kindness, mercy, decency, sincerity, and honesty from life.

And “herding” in these conditions is not the physical state of the “crowd”, but its way of behavior. We are all exposed to advertising and buy the same things. “What the neighbor has, I should have.” This is the most immutable law of our “crowd”. Hence the destruction of spiritual values.

Dostoevsky was wrong about one thing. The theme of parricide in his works today has most likely transformed into “maticide.” In Russia, children are more likely to hate and kill their mothers. Fathers leave their families - children blame their mother for all troubles, and it comes to killing her.

And lastly, there can no longer be a writer like Dostoevsky in our time. Compared to Dostoevsky, modern writers have a very poor inner world. It’s barely enough for simple everyday writing. For example, there were writers who went through Stalin’s concentration camps, but none of them wrote a work like Dostoevsky’s Notes from the House of the Dead. All of them limited themselves to writing about everyday life, albeit terrible, but writing about everyday life. Why is this happening? There are no new ideas in the souls of the writers; they suffered physically and mentally, but they could not convey it. Not the same feelings, not the same emotions today that Dostoevsky had before. Nowadays, a writer writes more or less interesting works when he is influenced by a strong external impulse (for example, war). The meager inner world of a modern writer blocks his path to a work of genius.

The international public organization "Club of Rome", uniting several hundred people who are part of the elite of the modern world, has come to the conclusion that in its development, humanity has entered the final part of its existence. In other words, if previously it was developing, now it is moving towards its death. It is difficult to say how long this stage will last, but one thing is certain - a person’s feelings, emotions, and sensuality are reduced and dulled in this process of dying. This also prevents the emergence of a new Dostoevsky among us modern people.

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(to the 190th anniversary of the writer )

Great literature is the literature of love and great passions, the love of writers for the muses of their lives. Who are they, the prototypes and muses of love? What kind of relationship connected them with the authors of those novels that granted them immortality?!

Maria Dmitrievna - first wife

IN" the most honest, the noblest and most generous woman of all IN"

On December 22, 1849, Fyodor Mikhailovich Dostoevsky, together with a whole group of freethinkers recognized as dangerous state criminals, was taken to the Semenovsky parade ground in St. Petersburg. He had 5 minutes to live, no more. The sentence was pronounced - "The retired engineer Lieutenant Dostoevsky should be subjected to the death penalty by shooting."

Looking ahead, let's say that at the last minute the death penalty was replaced by a link to hard labor for 4 years, and then service as a private. But at that moment, when the priest brought the cross for the last kiss, the writer’s entire short life flashed before his eyes. The sharpened memory contained entire years of life and years of love in seconds.

Dostoevsky's life was not filled with whirlwind romances or petty affairs. He was embarrassed and timid when it came to women. He could spend hours dreaming about love and beautiful strangers, but when he had to meet living women, he became ridiculous, and his attempts at intimacy invariably ended in real disaster. Perhaps this is why in all of his major works Dostoevsky depicted the failures of love. And love has always been associated with sacrifice and suffering.

When Dostoevsky found himself in Semipalatinsk in 1854, he was a mature, 33-year-old man. It was here that he met Alexander Ivanovich Isaev and his wife Marya Dmitrievna. Marya Dmitrievna, a beautiful blonde, was a passionate and exalted person. She was well-read, quite educated, inquisitive, and unusually lively and impressionable. She generally looked fragile and sickly, and in this way she sometimes reminded Dostoevsky of his mother.

Dostoevsky saw in the variability of her moods, breakdowns in her voice and light tears a sign of deep and sublime feelings. When he began to visit the Isaevs, Marya Dmitrievna took pity on her strange guest, although she was hardly aware of his exclusivity. She herself at that moment needed support: her life was sad and lonely, she could not maintain acquaintances because of her husband’s drunkenness and antics, and there was no money for it.

And although she proudly and resignedly bore her cross, she often wanted to complain and pour out her aching heart. And Dostoevsky was an excellent listener. He was always at hand. He understood her grievances perfectly, helped her endure all her misfortunes with dignity - and he entertained her in this swamp of provincial boredom.

Maria Dmitrievna was the first interesting young woman he met after four years of hard labor. Masochistic desires were intertwined in Dostoevsky in the most bizarre way: to love meant to sacrifice oneself and respond with one’s whole soul and whole body to the suffering of others, even at the cost of one’s own torment.

She understood very well that Dostoevsky was inflamed with real, deep passion for her - women usually easily recognize this - and she accepted his “courtships”, as she called them, willingly, without, however, attaching too much importance to them.

At the beginning of 1855, Marya Dmitrievna finally responded to Dostoevsky’s love, and a rapprochement occurred. But just in those days, Isaev was appointed assessor in Kuznetsk. This meant separation - perhaps forever.

After Marya Dmitrievna left, the writer was very sad. Having become a widow, after the death of her husband, Marya Dmitrievna decides to “test” his love. At the very end of 1855, Dostoevsky receives a strange letter from her. She asks him for impartial, friendly advice: “If there was an elderly man, and wealthy, and kind, and made me an offer” -

After reading these lines, Dostoevsky staggered and fainted. When he woke up, he told himself in despair that Marya Dmitrievna was going to marry someone else. After spending the whole night in sobs and agony, he wrote to her the next morning that he would die if she left him.

He loved with all the strength of a belated first love, with all the fervor of newness, with all the passion and excitement of a gambler who has staked his fortune on one card. At night he was tormented by nightmares and overwhelmed by tears. But there could be no marriage - his beloved fell in love with another.

Dostoevsky was overcome by an irresistible desire to give everything to Marya Dmitrievna, to sacrifice his love for the sake of her new feeling, to leave, and not interfere with her arranging her life as she wanted. When she saw that Dostoevsky did not reproach her, but only cared about her future, she was shocked.

A little time passed, and Dostoevsky’s financial affairs began to improve. Under the influence of these circumstances or due to the variability of character, Marya Dmitrievna noticeably cooled towards her fiancé. The question of marriage with him somehow disappeared by itself. In her letters to Dostoevsky, she did not skimp on words of tenderness and called him brother. Marya Dmitrievna stated that she had lost faith in her new affection and did not really love anyone except Dostoevsky.

He received formal consent to marry him in the very near future. Like a runner in a difficult race, Dostoevsky found himself at the goal, so exhausted from the effort that he accepted victory almost with indifference. At the beginning of 1857, everything was agreed upon, he borrowed the required amount of money, rented premises, received permission from his superiors and leave to get married. On February 6, Marya Dmitrievna and Fyodor Mikhailovich were married.

Their moods and desires almost never coincided. In that tense, nervous atmosphere that Marya Dmitrievna created, Dostoevsky had a feeling of guilt, which was replaced by explosions of passion, stormy, convulsive and unhealthy, to which Marya Dmitrievna responded with either fear or coldness. They both irritated, tormented and exhausted each other in constant struggle. Instead of a honeymoon, they experienced disappointment, pain and tedious attempts to achieve elusive sexual harmony.

For Dostoevsky, she was the first woman with whom he was close not through a short embrace of a chance meeting, but through constant marital cohabitation. But she shared neither his voluptuousness nor his sensuality. Dostoevsky had his own life, to which Marya Dmitrievna had nothing to do.

She wasted away and died. He traveled, wrote, published magazines, he visited many cities. One day, upon his return, he found her in bed, and he had to look after her for a whole year. She died of consumption painfully and difficultly. On April 15, 1864, she died - she died quietly, with full memory, and blessing everyone.

Dostoevsky loved her for all the feelings that she awakened in him, for everything that he put into her, for everything that was connected with her - and for the suffering that she caused him. As he himself said later: “She was the most honest, noblest and most generous woman I have known in my entire life.”

Apollinaria Suslova

After some time, Dostoevsky again longed for “female society”, and his heart was free again.

When he settled in St. Petersburg, his public readings at student evenings were a great success. In this atmosphere of uplift, noisy applause and applause, Dostoevsky met someone who was destined to play a different role in his fate. After one of the performances, a slender young girl with large gray-blue eyes, regular features of an intelligent face, with her head thrown back proudly, framed by magnificent reddish braids, approached him. Her name was Apollinaria Prokofyevna Suslova, she was 22 years old, she attended lectures at the university.

Of course, Dostoevsky, first of all, had to feel the charm of her beauty and youth. He was 20 years older than her, and he was always attracted to very young women. Dostoevsky always transferred his sexual fantasies to young girls. He perfectly understood and described the physical passion of a mature man for teenagers and twelve-year-old girls.

Dostoevsky was her first man. He was also her first strong attachment. But too much upset and humiliated the young girl in her first man: he subordinated their meetings to writing, business, family, and all sorts of circumstances of his difficult existence. She was jealous of Marya Dmitrievna with a dull and passionate jealousy - and did not want to accept Dostoevsky’s explanations that he could not divorce his sick, dying wife.

She could not agree to inequality in position: she gave everything for this love, he gave nothing. Taking care of his wife in every possible way, he did not sacrifice anything for Apollinaria. But she was everything that brightened his life outside the home. He now lived a double existence, in two dissimilar worlds.

Later, they decide to go abroad together in the summer. Apollinaria left alone, he was supposed to follow her, but could not get out until August. Separation from Apollinaria only inflamed his passion. But upon arrival, she said that she loved someone else. Only then did he realize what had happened.

Dostoevsky came to terms with the fact that he had to arrange the affairs of the heart of the very woman who had cheated on him, and whom he continued to love and desire. She had mixed feelings towards the writer. In St. Petersburg he was the master of the situation, and ruled, and tormented her, and, perhaps, loved her less than she did. And now his love not only did not suffer, but, on the contrary, even intensified from her betrayal. In the wrong game of love and torment, the places of the victim and the executioner have changed: the vanquished has become the winner. Dostoevsky was to experience this very soon.

But when he realized this, it was too late for resistance, and besides, the whole complexity of the relationship with Apollinaria became a source of secret sweetness for him. His love for a young girl entered a new, burning circle: suffering because of her became a pleasure. Daily communication with Apollinaria physically inflamed him, and he really burned in the slow fire of his unsatisfied passion.

After the death of Marya Dmitrievna, Dostoevsky writes to Apollinaria to come. But she doesn't want to see him. At first he tried to distract himself by taking whatever came to hand. Some random women again appear in his life. Then he decided that his salvation lay in marrying a good, clean girl.

Chance introduces him to a beautiful and talented 20-year-old young lady from an excellent noble family, Anna Korvin-Krukovskaya, she is very suitable for the role of a savior, and Dostoevsky thinks that he is in love with her. A month later, he is ready to ask for her hand in marriage, but nothing comes of this idea, and in those very months, he intensively visits Apollinaria’s sister and openly confides his heartfelt troubles to her.

The intervention of Nadezhda (Apollinaria's sister) apparently influenced her obstinate sister, and something like a reconciliation took place between them. Soon Dostoevsky left Russia and went to Apollinaria. He didn't see her for two years. Since then, his love has been fueled by memories and imagination.

When they finally met, Dostoevsky immediately saw how she had changed. She became colder and more distant. She mockingly said that his high impulses were banal sensitivity, and responded with contempt to his passionate kisses. If there were moments of physical intimacy, she gave them to him as if they were alms - and she always behaved as if it was not necessary or painful for her.

Dostoevsky tried to fight for this love, which had crumbled into dust, for the dream of it - and told Apollinaria that she should marry him. She, as usual, answered sharply, almost rudely. Soon they began to quarrel again. She contradicted him, mocked him, or treated him like an uninteresting, casual acquaintance.

And then Dostoevsky began to play roulette. He lost everything he and she had, and when she decided to leave, Dostoevsky did not hold her back. After Apollinaria's departure, Dostoevsky found himself in a completely desperate situation. Then he had a seizure, and it took him a long time to recover from this state.

In the spring of 1866, Apollinaria went to the village to visit her brother. She and Dostoevsky said goodbye, knowing full well that their paths would never cross again. But freedom brought her little joy. Later she got married, but life together did not work out. Those around her suffered greatly from her domineering, intolerant character.

She died in 1918, at the age of 78, hardly suspecting that next door to her, on the same Crimean coast, in the same year, the one who, fifty years ago, had taken her place in her heart, had passed away. loved one and became his wife.

IN" The sun of my life IN" - Anna Grigorievna Dostoevskaya


On the advice of his very good friend, Dostoevsky decided to hire a stenographer to carry out his “eccentric plan”; he wanted to publish the novel “The Player”. Shorthand was a new thing at that time, few people knew it, and Dostoevsky turned to a shorthand teacher. He offered work on the novel to his best student, Anna Grigorievna Sitkina, but warned her that the writer had a “strange and gloomy character” and that for all the work - seven sheets of large format - he would pay only 50 rubles.

Anna Grigorievna hastened to agree not only because earning money through her own labor was her dream, but also because she knew the name of Dostoevsky and had read his works. The opportunity to meet a famous writer and even help him in his literary work delighted and excited her. It was extraordinary luck.

At the first meeting, the writer slightly disappointed her. Only later did she understand how lonely he was at that time, how much he needed warmth and participation. She really liked his simplicity and sincerity - from the words and manner of speaking of this smart, strange, but unfortunate creature, as if abandoned by everyone, something sank in her heart.

She then told her mother about the complex feelings Dostoevsky had awakened in her: pity, compassion, amazement, uncontrollable craving. He was offended by life, a wonderful, kind and extraordinary person, it took her breath away when she listened to him, everything in her seemed to have turned upside down from this meeting. For this nervous, slightly exalted girl, meeting Dostoevsky was a huge event: she fell in love with him at first sight, without realizing it.

From then on, they worked several hours every day. The initial feeling of awkwardness disappeared, they talked willingly in between dictations. Every day he got more and more used to her, called her “darling”, “darling”, and these affectionate words pleased her. He was grateful to his employee, who spared neither time nor effort to help him.

They loved having heart-to-heart conversations so much, they got so used to each other during the four weeks of work that they were both scared when “Player” came to an end. Dostoevsky was afraid of ending his acquaintance with Anna Grigorievna. On October 29, Dostoevsky dictated the final lines of “The Player.” A few days later, Anna Grigorievna came to him to come to an agreement about working on the ending of Crime and Punishment. He was clearly delighted to see her. And he immediately decided to propose to her.

But at that moment when he proposed to his stenographer, he did not yet suspect that she would occupy an even greater place in his heart than all his other women. He needed marriage, he realized this and was ready to marry Anna Grigorievna “for convenience.” She agreed.

On February 15, 1867, in the presence of friends and acquaintances, they were married. But the beginning turned out to be bad: they did not understand each other well, he thought that she was bored with him, she was offended that he seemed to be avoiding her. A month after the marriage, Anna Grigorievna fell into a semi-hysterical state: there is a tense atmosphere in the house, she barely sees her husband, and they don’t even have the spiritual closeness that was created when working together.

And Anna Grigorievna suggested going abroad. Dostoevsky really liked the project of a trip abroad, but in order to get money, he had to go to Moscow, to his sister, and he took his wife with him. In Moscow, Anna Grigorievna faced new trials: in the family of Dostoevsky’s sister she was received with hostility. Although they soon realized that she was still a girl who clearly adored her husband, and, in the end, they accepted a new relative into their bosom.

The second torment was Dostoevsky’s jealousy: he made scenes for his wife over the most trivial reasons. One day he was so angry that he forgot that they were in a hotel, and screamed at the top of his voice, his face was distorted, he was scary, she was afraid that he would kill her, and burst into tears. Then only he came to his senses, began to kiss her hands, began to cry and confessed his monstrous jealousy.

In Moscow, their relationship improved significantly because they stayed together much more than in St. Petersburg. This consciousness strengthened Anna Grigorievna’s desire to go abroad and spend at least two or three months in solitude. But when they returned to St. Petersburg and announced their intention, there was noise and commotion in the family. Everyone began to dissuade Dostoevsky from traveling abroad, and he completely lost heart, hesitated and was about to refuse.

And then Anna Grigorievna unexpectedly showed the hidden strength of her character and decided to take an extreme measure: she pawned everything she had - furniture, silver, things, dresses, everything that she chose and bought with such joy. And soon they went abroad. They were going to spend three months in Europe, and returned from there after more than four years. But during these four years they managed to forget about the unsuccessful beginning of their life together: it has now turned into a close, happy and lasting community.

They stayed for some time in Berlin, then, having passed through Germany, settled in Dresden. It was here that their mutual rapprochement began, which very soon dispelled all his worries and doubts. They were completely different people - in age, temperament, interests, intelligence, but they also had a lot in common, and the happy combination of similarities and differences ensured the success of their married life.

Anna Grigorievna was shy and only when alone with her husband did she become lively and show what he called “hastiness.” He understood and appreciated this: he himself was timid, embarrassed with strangers and also did not feel any embarrassment only when alone with his wife, not like with Marya Dmitrievna or Apollinaria. Her youth and inexperience had a calming effect on him, encouraging him and dispelling his inferiority complexes and self-abasement.

Usually, in marriage, one gets to know each other's shortcomings intimately, and therefore slight disappointment arises. For the Dostoevskys, on the contrary, proximity revealed the best sides of their nature. Anna Grigorievna, who fell in love and married Dostoevsky, saw that he was completely extraordinary, brilliant, terrible, difficult.

And he, who married a diligent secretary, discovered that not only he was the “patron and protector of the young creature”, but she was his “guardian angel”, and friend, and support. Anna Grigorievna passionately loved Dostoevsky as a man and a human being, she loved with the mixed love of wife and mistress, mother and daughter.

When marrying Dostoevsky, Anna Grigorievna was hardly aware of what awaited her, and only after marriage did she understand the difficulty of the questions facing her. There was his jealousy, and suspicion, and his passion for the game, and his illness, and his peculiarities, and oddities. And, above all, the problem of physical relationships. As in everything else, their mutual adaptation did not come immediately, but as a result of a long, sometimes painful process.

Then they had to go through a lot, and especially her. Dostoevsky started playing in the casino again, and lost all his money; Anna Grigorievna pawned everything they had. After that, they moved to Geneva and lived there on what Anna Grigorievna’s mother sent them. They led a very modest and regular lifestyle. But, despite all the obstacles, their rapprochement intensified, both in joy and in sorrow.

In February 1868, their daughter was born. Dostoevsky was proud and pleased with his fatherhood and passionately loved the child. But little Sonya, “sweet angel,” as he called her, did not survive, and in May they lowered her coffin into a grave in the Geneva cemetery. They immediately left Geneva and moved to Italy. There they rested for a while and set off again. After some time, they found themselves in Dresden again, and there their second daughter was born, they named her Lyubov. Her parents shook over her, and the girl grew up to be a strong child.

But the financial situation was very difficult. Later, when Dostoevsky completed The Idiot, they had money. They lived in Dresden throughout 1870. But they suddenly decided to return to Russia. There were many reasons for this. On June 8, 1871, they moved to St. Petersburg: a week later, Anna Grigorievna’s son Fedor was born.

The beginning of life in Russia was difficult: Anna Grigorievna’s house was sold for next to nothing, but they did not give up. During the 14 years of her life with Dostoevsky, Anna Grigorievna experienced a lot of grievances, anxieties and misfortunes (their second son, Alexei, born in 1875, soon died), but she never complained about her fate.

It is safe to say that the years spent with Anna Grigorievna in Russia were the calmest, most peaceful and, perhaps, the happiest in his life.

Improved life and sexual satisfaction, which led to the complete disappearance of epilepsy in 1877, did little to change Dostoevsky’s character and habits. He was well over 50 when he calmed down somewhat - at least outwardly - and began to get used to family life

His ardor and suspicion have not diminished over the years. He often startled strangers in society with his angry remarks. At 60, he was just as jealous as in his youth. But he is also just as passionate in his expressions of love.

In his old age, he became so accustomed to Anna Grigorievna and his family that he absolutely could not do without them. In 1879 and early 1880, Dostoevsky's health deteriorated greatly. In January, his pulmonary artery ruptured due to excitement, and two days later bleeding began. They intensified, the doctors were unable to stop them, and he fell into unconsciousness several times.

On January 28, 1881, he called Anna Grigorievna to him, took her hand and whispered: “Remember, Anya, I always loved you dearly and never betrayed you, even mentally.” By evening he was gone.

Anna Grigorievna remained faithful to her husband beyond the grave. In the year of his death, she was only 35 years old, but she considered her female life over and devoted herself to serving his name. She died in Crimea, alone, far from family and friends, in June 1918 - and with her went to the grave the last of the women whom Dostoevsky loved.

He is recognized as a classic of literature and one of the best novelists of world significance. It is 195 years since the birth of Dostoevsky.

First love

Fyodor Mikhailovich Dostoevsky was born on November 11, 1821 in Moscow and was the second child in a large family. His father, a doctor at the Moscow Mariinsky Hospital for the Poor, received the title of hereditary nobleman in 1828. Mother is from a merchant family, a religious woman. From January 1838, Dostoevsky studied at the Main Engineering School. He suffered from the military atmosphere and drill, from disciplines alien to his interests and from loneliness. As his college friend, the artist Trutovsky, testified, Dostoevsky kept himself aloof, but amazed his comrades with his erudition, and a literary circle formed around him. After serving for less than a year in the St. Petersburg engineering team, in the summer of 1844 Dostoevsky resigned with the rank of lieutenant, deciding to devote himself entirely to creativity.

In 1846, a new talented star appeared on the literary horizon of St. Petersburg - Fyodor Dostoevsky. The young author’s novel “Poor People” creates a real sensation among the reading public. Dostoevsky, hitherto unknown to anyone, in an instant becomes a public person, for the honor of seeing whom famous people fight in their literary salon.

Most often, Dostoevsky could be seen at the evenings at Ivan Panaev’s, where the most famous writers and critics of that time gathered: Turgenev, Nekrasov, Belinsky. However, it was not the opportunity to talk with his more venerable fellow writers that drew the young man there. Sitting in the corner of the room, Dostoevsky, holding his breath, watched Panaev's wife, Avdotya. This was the woman of his dreams! Beautiful, smart, witty - everything about her excited his mind. In his dreams, confessing his ardent love, Dostoevsky, because of his timidity, was even afraid to speak to her again.

Avdotya Panaeva, who later left her husband for Nekrasov, was completely indifferent to the new visitor to her salon. “At first glance at Dostoevsky,” she writes in her memoirs, “it was clear that he was a terribly nervous and impressionable young man. He was thin, small, blond, with a sallow complexion; his small gray eyes somehow moved anxiously from object to object, and his pale lips twitched nervously.” How can she, the queen, pay attention to such a “handsome man” among these writers and counts!

Petrashevsky circle

One day, out of boredom, at the invitation of a friend, Fyodor dropped in for the evening at Petrashevsky’s circle. Young liberals gathered there, read French books banned by censorship and talked about how good it would be to live under republican rule. Dostoevsky liked the cozy atmosphere, and although he was a staunch monarchist, he began to come to “Fridays.”

But these “tea parties” ended badly for Fyodor Mikhailovich. Emperor Nicholas I, having received information about the “Petrashevsky circle,” gave an order to arrest everyone. One night they came for Dostoevsky. First, six months of imprisonment in solitary confinement in the Peter and Paul Fortress, then the sentence - the death penalty, commuted to four years in prison with further service as a private.

The years that followed were some of the hardest in Dostoevsky's life. A nobleman by birth, he found himself among murderers and thieves who immediately disliked the “political”. “Every new arrival in the prison, two hours after arrival, becomes like everyone else,” he recalled. - Not so with a noble, with a nobleman. No matter how fair, kind, smart he may be, he will be hated and despised by everyone for years, by the whole mass.” But Dostoevsky did not break. On the contrary, he came out a completely different person. It was during penal servitude that knowledge of life, human characters, and the understanding that a person can combine good and evil, truth and lies, came together.

In 1854, Dostoevsky arrived in Semipalatinsk. Soon I fell in love. The object of his desires was the wife of his friend Maria Isaeva. This woman has felt deprived of both love and success all her life. Born into a fairly wealthy family of a colonel, she unsuccessfully married an official who turned out to be an alcoholic. Dostoevsky, who for many years had not known the affection of a woman, thought that he had met the love of his life. He spends evening after evening at the Isaevs', listening to the drunken eloquence of Maria's husband just to be near his beloved.

In August 1855, Isaev dies. Finally, the obstacle was removed, and Dostoevsky proposed to the woman he loved. Maria, who had a growing son and debts for her husband’s funeral, had no choice but to accept her admirer’s offer. On February 6, 1857, Dostoevsky and Isaeva got married. On the wedding night, an incident occurred that became an omen of the failure of this family union. Dostoevsky suffered an epileptic attack due to nervous tension. The body convulsing on the floor, the foam flowing from the corners of his mouth - the picture she saw forever instilled in Maria a shade of some kind of disgust for her husband, for whom she already had no love.

Conquered peak

In 1860, Dostoevsky, thanks to the help of friends, received permission to return to St. Petersburg. There he met Apollinaria Suslova, whose features can be seen in many of the heroines of his works: in Katerina Ivanovna and Grushenka from The Brothers Karamazov, and in Polina from The Player, and in Nastasya Filippovna from The Idiot. Apollinaria made an indelible impression: a slender girl “with large gray-blue eyes, with regular features of an intelligent face, with her head thrown back proudly, framed by magnificent braids. In her low, somewhat slow voice and in the whole demeanor of her strong, tightly built body there was a strange combination of strength and femininity.”

Their romance, which began, turned out to be passionate, stormy and uneven. Dostoevsky either prayed to his “angel”, lay at her feet, or behaved like a brute and a rapist. He was either enthusiastic, sweet, or capricious, suspicious, hysterical, shouting at her in some nasty, thin woman's voice. In addition, Dostoevsky’s wife became seriously ill, and he could not leave her, as Polina demanded. Gradually, the lovers' relationship reached a dead end.

They decided to leave for Paris, but when Dostoevsky arrived there, Apollinaria told him: “You’re a little late.” She fell passionately in love with a certain Spaniard, who, by the time Dostoevsky arrived, abandoned the Russian beauty that had bored him. She sobbed into Dostoevsky's vest, threatened to commit suicide, and he, stunned by the unexpected meeting, calmed her down and offered her brotherly friendship. Here Dostoevsky urgently needs to go to Russia - his wife Maria is dying. He visits the sick woman, but not for long - it’s very hard to watch: “Her nerves are extremely irritated. The chest is bad, withered like a matchstick. Horror! It’s painful and hard to watch.”

His letters contain a combination of sincere pain, compassion and petty cynicism. “My wife is dying, literally. Her suffering is terrible and resonates with me. The story drags on. Here's another thing: I'm afraid that my wife's death will happen soon, and then a break from work will be necessary. If it weren’t for this break, I think I would have finished the story.”

In the spring of 1864 there was a “break in work” - Masha died. Looking at her withered corpse, Dostoevsky writes in his notebook: “Masha is lying on the table... It is impossible to love a person as yourself according to the commandment of Christ.” Almost immediately after the funeral, he offers Apollinaria his hand and heart, but is refused - for her Dostoevsky was a conquered peak.

“For me, you are lovely, and there is no one like you”

Soon Anna Snitkina appeared in the writer’s life; she was recommended as Dostoevsky’s assistant. Anna perceived this as a miracle - after all, Fyodor Mikhailovich had long been her favorite writer. She came to him every day, and sometimes deciphered shorthand notes at night. “Talking to me in a friendly manner, every day Fyodor Mikhailovich revealed to me some sad picture of his life,” Anna Grigorievna would later write in her memoirs. “Deep pity involuntarily crept into my heart when he talked about difficult circumstances from which he, apparently, never came out, and could not come out.”

The novel "The Gambler" was completed on October 29. The next day Fyodor Mikhailovich celebrated his birthday. Anna was invited to the celebration. As he said goodbye, he asked permission to meet her mother to thank her for her magnificent daughter. By that time, he had already realized that Anna had fallen in love with him, although she expressed her feeling only silently. The writer also liked her more and more.

The few months from engagement to wedding were pure bliss. “It was not physical love, not passion. It was rather adoration, admiration for a person so talented and possessing such high spiritual qualities. The dream of becoming his life partner, sharing his labors, making his life easier, giving him happiness - took possession of my imagination,” she would later write.

Anna Grigorievna and Fyodor Mikhailovich got married on February 15, 1867. The happiness remained, but the serenity was completely gone. Anna had to use all her patience, perseverance and courage. There were problems with money, huge debts. Her husband suffered from depression and epilepsy. Convulsions, seizures, irritability - all this fell upon her in full. And that was only half the story.

Dostoevsky's pathological passion for gambling is a terrible passion for roulette. Everything was at stake: family savings, Anna's dowry, and even Dostoevsky's gifts to her. Losses ended in periods of self-flagellation and ardent repentance. The writer begged his wife for forgiveness, and then it all started all over again.

The writer’s stepson Pavel, the son of Maria Isaeva, who actually ran the house, was not distinguished by a meek disposition, and was dissatisfied with his father’s new marriage. Pavel constantly tried to prick the new mistress. He sat firmly on his stepfather’s neck, like other relatives. Anna realized that the only way out was to go abroad. Dresden, Baden, Geneva, Florence. It was against the backdrop of these divine landscapes that their real rapprochement took place, and their affection turned into a serious feeling. They often quarreled and made up. Dostoevsky began to show unreasonable jealousy. “For me, you are lovely, and there is no one like you. And every person with a heart and taste should say this if he takes a closer look at you - that’s why I’m sometimes jealous of you,” he said.

And while staying in Baden-Baden, where they spent their honeymoon, the writer lost again in a casino. After that, he sent his wife a note at the hotel: “Help me, send me an engagement ring.” Anna meekly complied with this request.

They spent four years abroad. Joys gave way to sorrows and even tragedies. In 1868, their first daughter, Sonechka, was born in Geneva. She left this world three months later. This was a big shock for Anna and her husband. A year later, their second daughter, Lyuba, was born in Dresden.

Returning to St. Petersburg, they spent a significant part of their time in the romantically secluded Staraya Russa. He dictated, she took shorthand. The children were growing up. In 1871, a son, Fedor, was born in St. Petersburg, and in 1875, a son, Alyosha, was born in Staraya Russa. Three years later, Anna and her husband again had to endure a tragedy - in the spring of 1878, three-year-old Alyosha died of an epileptic seizure.

Returning to St. Petersburg, they did not dare to stay in the apartment, where everything reminded them of their deceased son, and settled at the famous address - Kuznechny Lane, building 5. Anna Grigorievna’s room turned into the office of a businesswoman. She managed everything: she was Dostoevsky’s secretary and stenographer, was involved in the publication of his works and the book trade, managed all financial affairs in the house, and raised children.

The relative calm was short-lived. Epilepsy has subsided, but new diseases have appeared. And then there are family disputes over inheritance. Fyodor Mikhailovich's aunt left him the Ryazan estate, stipulating the payment of sums of money to his sisters. But Vera Mikhailovna, one of the sisters, demanded that the writer give up his share in favor of the sisters.

After a stormy showdown, Dostoevsky's blood started pouring down his throat. The year was 1881, Anna Grigorievna was only 35 years old. Until recently, she did not believe in her husband’s imminent death. “Fyodor Mikhailovich began to console me, spoke sweet, affectionate words to me, thanked me for the happy life he lived with me. He entrusted the children to me, said that he believed me and hoped that I would always love and take care of them. Then he told me the words that a rare husband could say to his wife after fourteen years of marriage: “Remember, Anya, I have always loved you dearly and have never cheated on you, even mentally,” she will remember later. Two days later he was gone.

"I would be happier without you"

The object of desire was the wife of his friend Maria Isaeva. This woman has felt deprived of both love and success all her life. Born into a fairly wealthy family of a colonel, she unsuccessfully married an official who turned out to be an alcoholic. The husband lost position after position - and so the family ended up in Semipalatinsk, which can hardly be called a city. Lack of money, broken girlish dreams of balls and handsome princes - everything made her dissatisfied with her marriage. How pleasant it was to feel the gaze of Dostoevsky’s burning eyes on yourself, to feel desired.

In August 1855, Maria's husband died. And Dostoevsky proposed to the woman he loved. Did Maria love him? More likely no than yes. Pity - yes, but not the love and understanding that the writer, suffering from loneliness, so longed to receive. But life's pragmatism took its toll. Isaeva, who had a growing son and debts for her husband’s funeral, had no choice but to accept her admirer’s offer. On February 6, 1857, Fyodor Dostoevsky and Maria Isaeva got married. In 1860, Dostoevsky, thanks to the help of friends, received permission to return to St. Petersburg.

How things have changed since the 40s! Most creative people publish newspapers and magazines. Dostoevsky was no exception. In January 1861, together with his brother, he began publishing the monthly review “Time”. Despite the joy that a literary brainchild gives, the body can hardly tolerate such an exhausting lifestyle. Epilepsy seizures are becoming more frequent. Family life does not bring peace at all. Constant quarrels with my wife, her reproaches: “I shouldn’t have married you. I would be happier without you."

“I love her, but I wouldn’t want to love her anymore”

The meeting with the young Appolinaria Suslova stirred up what seemed to be forever extinguished feelings of Dostoevsky. The acquaintance happened quite banally. Suslova brought the story to the magazine. Dostoevsky liked it and wanted to communicate more with the author. These meetings gradually grew into an urgent need for the editor-in-chief; he could no longer do without them.

It is difficult to imagine people more incompatible with each other than Dostoevsky and Suslova. She is a feminist, but he was of the opinion of male supremacy. She was interested in revolutionary ideas, he is a conservative and a supporter of the monarchy. At first, Polina became interested in Dostoevsky as a famous editor and writer. He is a former exile, which means he is a victim of the regime she hates! However, disappointment soon set in. Instead of the strong personality she had hoped to find, the young girl saw a shy, sick man whose lonely soul yearned for understanding.

The writer suggested that Apollinaria go to Europe, where nothing would distract them from their feelings. But the problems that arose with the Vremya magazine and the deteriorating health of his wife Maria Dmitrievna, whom doctors strongly recommended to take away from St. Petersburg, did not allow the dreams to come true. Dostoevsky persuaded Suslova to go alone, without him. Out of impatience to quickly change the situation, she left for Paris and persistently began to call him in letters.

However, he was in no hurry to meet. Only worried that his mistress suddenly fell silent - he had not received a single line from her for the last three weeks - the writer hit the road. True, Apollinaria’s sudden silence did not prevent Fyodor Mikhailovich from staying for three days in Wiesbaden and trying his luck at roulette. Three days passed, the passion was quenched, the winnings, almost the only time in Dostoevsky’s life when roulette treated him favorably, were divided between his dying wife and his mistress waiting on the banks of the Seine. During these three days there was no news from her, but a letter was waiting for him in Paris, which Apollinaria left a week before her friend’s arrival. “Very recently I dreamed of going to Italy with you, but everything changed in a few days. You once said that I could not give my heart away soon. I gave it up within a week at the first call, without a struggle, without confidence, almost without hope that they would love me Goodbye, darling!” - Dostoevsky read the confession.

His girlfriend’s new romance did not work out: her lover, Spanish student Salvador, avoided meeting each other after a couple of weeks. Dostoevsky unwittingly turned out to be a witness to these love experiences of Apollinaria. She then ran away from him, then returned again. At seven in the morning she got him out of bed after a sleepless night and shared her doubts, hopes, dragged him through the streets of Paris, counting on a chance meeting with Salvador.

“Apollinaria is a sick egoist,” the writer complained to Suslova’s sister after their final breakup. – The selfishness and pride in her are colossal I still love her, I love her very much, but I would no longer want to love her. She's not worth that kind of love. I feel sorry for her because I foresee that she will forever be unhappy.”

last love

1864 became one of the most difficult years in Dostoevsky’s life. In the spring, his wife Maria dies of consumption, and in the summer, his brother Mikhail dies. Trying to forget himself, Dostoevsky delves into solving pressing problems. After Mikhail's death, there were 25 thousand rubles in debt. Saving his brother's family from complete ruin, Fyodor Mikhailovich issues bills against the required debts in his name and takes relatives as security.

And then the famous St. Petersburg publisher-reseller Stellovsky appears, offering Dostoevsky three thousand rubles for the publication of his three-volume collection. An additional clause to the contract was the writer’s obligation to write a new novel, using the money already paid, the manuscript of which had to be submitted no later than November 1, 1866. Dostoevsky agrees to these enslaving conditions. By the beginning of October, the writer had not yet written a single line of the future novel. The situation was simply catastrophic. Realizing that he himself will not have time to write a novel, Dostoevsky decides to resort to the help of a stenographer who would write down what the writer dictated. So a young assistant appeared in Dostoevsky’s house - Anna Grigorievna Snitkina. Not liking each other at first, in the process of working on the book they become closer and are imbued with warm feelings.

Dostoevsky understands that he has fallen in love with Anna, but is afraid to admit his feelings for fear of rejection. Then he told her a fictitious story about an old artist who fell in love with a young girl. What would she have done in this girl's place? Of course, the insightful Anna immediately understands from her nervous trembling and from the writer’s face who the true characters of this story are. The girl’s answer is simple: “I would answer you that I love you and will love you all my life.” The lovers got married in February 1867.

For Anna, family life begins with troubles. The writer’s relatives immediately disliked the young wife; his stepson, Pyotr Isaev, was especially zealous. Unemployed and living off his stepfather, Isaev saw Anna as a rival and feared for his future. He decided to drive his young stepmother out of the house with various petty meannesses, insults and slander. Realizing that this cannot go on any longer and that she will simply run away from this house a little longer, Anna persuades Dostoevsky to go abroad.

A four-year wandering in a foreign land begins. In Germany, Dostoevsky regained his passion for roulette. He loses all the family savings he brought. Dostoevsky returns to confess to his wife. She doesn’t scold him, realizing that her Fedor simply cannot resist this passion.

After returning to St. Petersburg, a bright streak finally begins in Dostoevsky’s life. He works on “The Diary of a Writer”, writes the most famous novel “The Brothers Karamazov”, children are born. And all the time next to him is his life support - his wife Anna, who understands and loves.

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